[tw #suicide findahelpline.com] fuck’s sake, amazon is so untrustworthy now that they sell suicide kits, and remove reviews on them from grieving people
do you truly think they will give even one shit about us???
do you really want to sell on a marketplace like that???
[#suicide] my choices are either, make an attempt, most likely fail, get trapped in a hospital for 14 days being neglected during another covid surge, & rebuild yet again upon exit;
or, idk, do shit that’s good for me & stabilizes me even though my blood boils, wanting to emerge
[#suicide] it’s almost worse on the days when you know you won’t kill yourself, because then you know there’s no relief either, just more life ahead
may you fucking live in interesting times indeed
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[#suicide] one of the biggest warning signs that I am either suicidal or about to make an attempt is if I delete my twitter, like I did in 2018
deleting my twitter means I believe I should no longer communicate with the world & exist in public
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[#suicide] thinking about how I was certain I wouldn’t see my 18th birthday because I was sure I’d die by my own hand before then, and how my best friend (also AsAm) made an attempt in high school, and she wasn’t the only one t.co/dtQVyYByZV